Ah, the dreaded finger!

I do believe that before noon today I already felt like giving at least 5 people the finger. Perhaps I’m just premenstrual. However days like these always make me stop to consider the relationships in my life. Sometimes I listen to others around me talk and realize they seem to complain constantly about the same old things. I listen and wish they would begin to ask themselves if perhaps they could change, instead of being so upset that others won’t change. Ah, this brings me to look at myself. *sighs* How often do I do the same thing? Would it not be grand to learn to shut my mouth if all that pours out is complaints? Instead I would seek change in myself, and actively and intently seek to practice that change. Alas, it is not so easy.
The very things that wear me out are the very things that if addressed with intent, might not be so wearisome. How many moments, how many days do I spend intent on all the wrong things or intent on nothing at all? I could write a list of my top five priorities, however if I ponder my life, am I truly living as they are the top five at all? Oh Lord, I am so constantly in need of Your divine intervention!