Just stick a fork in me....

I should start this post by saying that my recent dating ventures have been products of an online dating website. Upon realizing that my current life filled with raising children, school, and working from home does not allow much time to get out and meet people, online dating seemed like a viable option. Pump the brakes. I'm not sure how long I've been at it, maybe 5 or 6 weeks, but I think it's about time to call it quits for a while. I've wanted to cry all evening. I feel like the word love has become so overused in our society that it has nearly lost its appeal to people. It feels like so many people now are just looking for something akin to an over the counter drug. Just give me a quick fix and I'll be on my way. It seems that no one really wants to take the effort it would require to acquire the good stuff. Don't get me wrong, no one confessed to loving me, and I am not under the delusion that I was in love with any one else. I just get the feeling people say that's what they want when no one really seems to know what it takes to have it. If it doesn't come cheap and easy....they aren't interested. Sad. It also feels a lot like rejection. In the end it all leaves me wanting to crawl back into my shell and go live another 3-4 years of my life focusing intently on my priorities while I try to bury that deep desire to engage in relationship. Fuck it all. Is it even worth it?
I'll spend the next week pondering that question. Perhaps I'll log-in in another week and have some answers to that question.