Writing

I bought an Anna Nalick cd a while back ago, but have only just recently become more interested in listening to it. I have this habit of ordering a multitude of cds all at once from sites like Ebay. When I get a stack of them all at the same time it can take me a while to become interested in some of them because I tend to get stuck on my favorites.

On this cd there is a song called Breathe (2am). Here is a small clip of some of the lyrics near the end of the song:

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song

If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,

Threatening the life it belongs to

And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd

Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud

And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

I started writing when I was 12 years old as a means of release. When I felt that I couldn't talk to anyone about all the emotions going on inside of me I would put pen to paper and spell out my feelings. For years I never showed anyone but my sister any of the things I had written. When my sister passed away I began to share some of my collection to others in my life. This was a huge step for me, as I was taking a risk I had never dared to take before.

The words to this song speak so beautifully to the feelings I often have about sharing the things I write. Starting a blog on the web was slightly frightening to me in the beginning. This was a portion of the reason I chose to write anonymously. When I realized that no one would generally ever read what I have to say anyways I felt more freedom to share raw emotions and experiences.

So, if you have something to say but you aren't sure who to say it to......spell it out. I assure you it's healing. Had I not started pouring things onto paper at an early age I might have cracked a long time ago.