Dear Blog

Dear Blog,
I realize I haven’t written in awhile. My first reaction is to spell out the many things in my life that have kept me too busy to write. The thought that then crosses my mind is that I am likely making excuses. You see, I can look upon my life and see that I am often busy with work, raising children, errands, etc., etc. However, I also see a lot of time I do not use wisely. There are many ways I do this. The one that bothers me the most is sleeping. Now I don’t mean the 8 hours we should get every night. I mean the naps I take during the day. The ones I am often inspired to take after dealing with the tantrum of a child, or a glance at my current bills and then my bank statement. I also like to fill my down time with visits with friends or family. This is important, and it can be very good for me. However, I often allow it to be a large distraction from pressing matters as well. It seems I have a bit of a problem telling myself no at times. “No, your closet is already bulging at the seams and you can’t possibly have room for one more pair of shoes.” Oh, that’s a big one. I do love shopping. It does not serve well as a medicinal purpose for my bouts with depression though.
I have told myself that for the next month I will not engage in any more of my shopping sprees. Whether online, or in stores. Oh my goodness those discounted designer dresses are already calling my name! Oh dear blog! I know I’ve not been such a dear friend as of late! Now I am asking for your help! Would you please so kindly act as an accountability partner for me as I travel this road of “what’s in my closet is enough?” And the cigarettes too. They absolutely must go! I have 5 packs left, and they must be my last! Dear Lord! What am I thinking!? Heaping all this discipline on myself all at once! I’m just so tired of complacency. Tired of speaking of things I’d like to do and never moving my rear end far enough to accomplish any of these things.
I shall try and remember some of the many things that have driven me to this place of absolution; my health, my children, my future, goals, dreams, and so on. Alright blog, so I’m counting on you to help. Not just you though. I don’t want to burden you with all of the responsibility. I’ll also be turning to family and friends for support and encouragement. Please forgive me in advance for any hostility I may force you to suffer through. You know I mean you no harm. I am painfully aware though of the tension I am about to embrace in my life. My head sometimes spins just to think of it! Well enough for now! Work is calling my name. Until we meet again….
Yours truly,
Betty