A song, because there's a first time for everything

Hadn't heard from you in awhile
You crossed my mind I started to smile
I used to love to make you laugh
But those times have passed

Out of the blue I heard from you
"Do you wanna meet?" I think I do
I am anxious all over again
You were always a special friend

As soon as I see your face
I can feel my heart start to race
But when we start to talk
I can see that you have changed

Now I can see it's not just you
There's been some change in my life too
I guess it was never meant to be
Any more than this

You should know
that I held some hope
But I've finally let go
While holding on
To this dream
I've not been true to me

My heart might ache from time to time
Then I'll put you out of my mind
No more living in the past
I'm letting go of looking back