If I died Tomorrow

If I died tomorrow
What what would they say?
That they always saw a smile on my face?
Because they never saw the tears spilling behind closed doors.
Quite consistently.
Those evenings when the  weight of life leaves me feeling small
As if my efforts were too meager.
Or maybe I'm simply being my own worst critic.
But I'm not alone.
Though I often feel alone.
Peace emerges when I look up and admit that God walks with me.
I don't always feel the peace.
But I always trust the truth.
Some days I find myself hoping to be rescued
Forgetting that I already have been.
And every day he promises to rescue me again.
Emmanuel.....

Perhaps I should work more on telling the truth.
Being honest.
About the joys, and the struggles.
Sharing not for my own sake, but to ease someone else's burden.
I'm certain we all need to be reminded.....
That we are not alone....